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*I can finally rest my head on something real*
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[06 Jun 2008|03:00am] |
sometimes i wish i could go back to the way it was when it was easy
sometimes i wonder how different it would be if some things never changed
i wonder if i'd be happier
"/ i shouldn't have looked at those videos, and you shouldn't be on my mind but you are
i thought i was over you, but i guess its going to take a whole lot longer than i thought...you cut me deep. :(
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[07 Jan 2008|12:13pm] |
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So i was STUPID and looked at your page...and on it I saw what you wrote about being with her for a year and realizing she was the one on New Years last year when you were kissing ME. Then realizing that what everyone told me...how you introduced her as your girlfriend...they were right...you played me like you played the other girls...and I don't know how you managed to do it. You really aren't that great...you're white trash....you are a loser...and I know I'm better than you....but it still hurts...realizing what you did and how manipulative you really are. I didn't listen to the people I should've listened to.
It feels like everytime I take 1 step forward, I take 20 back.
Seriously...fuck you.
To the other one...feelings are a lot different there. If you wanted me back I'd probably come running in a heart beat. I don't know what we're trying to do...what we are thinking, but I feel it when I'm with you...and that scares me. I'm scared no one will make me feel the way you do, that I won't be able to look at another man and be so attracted to him, to miss the feeling of his lips on mine, to want to hold someone so bad my heart aches. Ian is dog shit on the ground compared to you, and maybe thats why I hold you up so high...but talking and seeing you again is bringing false hopes...or maybe they aren't false...but there are still hopes. Even though I don't think I could do what we did again...unless things changed...I hope they do change. I do still love you....and that's what hurts the most.
Oye "/
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
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[04 Nov 2007|08:59pm] |
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It's funny how much you grow from your experiences....especially those that you don't think you can ever get up from. It's amazing how I can look at certain guys and be like "wow I've dated you before, moving on", or how I can look at certain friends and just know that they aren't meant to be in my life. For the first time I'm standing up to people and cutting people out of my life. It's been hard...to stand up for what I believe in....hard because I'm always thinking "what if". However, I'd rather be thinking what if then have negative people in my life anymore.
Things have been going great for me so far. I've got my friends and met some wonderful new ones! I've gone on some dates (some fabulous, some that have made me want to pull my hair out). But I've been able to choose who I want to be with and who isn't worth my time...something so different...something that I haven't done. I...Laila...yes me, have been single for 6 months now....and that in itself is I think a major accomplisment. I'm done jumping into stuff with the wrong guys, with complete douche bags....I've already been there, already done that. I'm so ready to move on and let everything in my past be just that..in my past.
On top of all that, I have a great job that I hope to take with me after graduation. I get to work with kids in the psychology field....both of my passions in one! And...I'M GRADUATING THIS YEAR! I can't believe it, yeah it's been fucking hard....17 units for the past 2 semesters and probably another 16 next semester. It's all so worth it!
Things are fabulous right now, I'm just waiting for them to get even better!
On top of it, Patriots kicked ass today <33 :)
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[23 Jul 2007|11:11pm] |
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honestly i think thats where I've gotten at this point. I have my ups and my downs and this week I think I'm back to sinking low and to pitying myself, which I hate. However, 2 heartbreaks in a year is a new record, honestly, who can say that for themselves? I dated two complete douche bags and kept the same pattern with both of them and ended up getting royally FUCKED over by each of them. I sit back and read all the mushy gushy love bullshit that I wrote about Ian and Robbie and I want to throw up. Neither of them should have ever gotten any of my love but both managed to get and break my heart. And now...Ian is engaged...or so he says. Here everyone on livejournal...Ian Tate (world's biggest douchebag) is engaged to his 17 year old girlfriend who he cheated on me with. Now this shouldn't be taken in the wrong context, I don't want that white piece of trash back...either of them...however...to know that someone you gave almost two years of your life to, who you ended friendships over, who you spent over 3000 dollars on, who you gave EVERYTHING TO is now engaged to the girl he UGH it's DISGUSTING! And Robbie...who the fuck knows...why call anymore? "Hey laila, I was just thinking about life and wanted to call and see how things were going"....or perhaps what he should have said was "hey laila my life sucks right now does yours? i know I fucked up royally". Seriously I am livid right now, I am hurt, i am SPEECHLESS. I want to scream, punch something, get back at them for everything those pricks put me through. I am SO over it all...so over everything, I want something new, something right, something real. You both are lying sacks of shit who never deserved my love...but luckily, I still believe that the right MAN is out there for me who will give me all the love back that I give him.
This song is now OFFICIALLY my song.
I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me
I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
'Cos I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try and make it all OK
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but I never will
Never again
If she really knows the truth, she deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes, and he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone
You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say it right to my face
Give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but I never will
Never again
[Bridge]
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but I never will
I never will
I never will
Never again
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[24 May 2007|11:28am] |
in SD, he's sleepin right now....so nice to be with him here, i've missed him a lot....but being here with him makes me believe that we're going to make it, that we are going to be okay.
im in love...its pretty simple...and it's fabulous.
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[30 Apr 2007|05:26pm] |
wow, 21....it feels kind of weird, but in a good way...Im finally realizing that I can't keep everyone in my life that I've tried so hard to keep...I now need to just let things flow, I can't keep living my life worried about what someone thinks about me or if I did something to piss someone off or live my life walking on egg shells.
On a better note, my birthday was made pretty special by all my friends and my incredible boyfriend who surprised me on Wednesday and absolutly made my night. My friends who were there at any point this weekend, whether it be wed, thurs, fri, sat or all four really made my days and nights special and I am so lucky to have them in my life. So thank you to everyone for making 21 very special
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[10 Apr 2007|10:47pm] |
i hate when my mind races and i have a million things going through it. i swear, i need to learn to stop....take a step back, and stop psyching myself out soo much. im coming to a point in my life where unfortunatly i feel as though im having a harder time trusting people, even those who have been closest to me. i dunno why im feeling this way, but im feeling so damn unappreciated. i feel like i do SO much for people, and yes, i do it out of the goodness of my heart...but sometimes i feel as though that goodness is walked all over. why don't i go with my first instinct? why do i listen to everybody else and what they tell me to do? why? because i care, because the last thing i want to do is piss anyone off. i'd rather take a shitload from everyone then ruin someone elses day...is that normal???? when am i going to stick up for myself?? when am i going to love me? when am i finally going to just say fuck it and do things FOR ME not for other people.
and YOU...oh you....thanks to you, I find myself questioning my worth...which I try not to show because I know its going to end up fucking up the best relationship i've had thus far. No, I don't still care about you, no I don't think about you all the time....but there are those moments, those moments i have of weakness that wonders why I didn't just stay away...why i went back to you, only to, once again, not go with my instinct, to be cheated on, to be hurt so badly. so then i think, well if YOU, who I trusted with every inch of me, would do that to me, what would stop someone else. furthermore, what makes me so special that i can go from having a white trash scum bag like you to someone so wonderful...why does he want someone like me? i have an extremely good looking boyfriend, whose funny, and who i know does not have trouble meeting people or girls...and for some reason wants to stay with me, and i question it. and im so worried that my doubt in myself is going to ruin one of the best things i've ever had. and the thing that kills, is this self doubt was because of you...and i dont know why im letting someone who i know isn't worth the shit on my shoe make me feel so damn low. i know i love robbie, i feel it....but then, i also feel like im scared to love him...its like im waiting for him to break up with me any day now, or get the phone call that he met someone else, or that he got drunk and hooked up with a girl, so on and so forth....but i dont want it to be that way. so when am i going to get up and stop letting you make me feel so god damn low?
to top it off, I miss Nicole so much...its time, especially like these that I would give ANYTHING to call her and talk to her about my situation. What kills me is that I could see her on Thursday, but I know I can't miss work, and I can't miss school...i wonder what she'd tell me now....how she'd feel about me doing this to myself...
i just want to live life and be happy, i want to celebrate all the joys in my life, i dont want to dwell on the things in the past or the people that aren't worth my time...i just wonder when i'm actually going to get off my ass and do it.
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i have that feeling in my stomach where it's all in knots and butterflies, but in a good way....i really really really hope this feeling lasts cuz everytime i see him or look into his eyes or see him smile or when he kisses me or holds my hand or runs his fingers through my hair my heart skips a beat. i look at him and think, this has to be too good to be true, i dont know how i got someone this good, im still waiting for him to tell me he wants to break up, but with each visit he says one more thing and i fall, and i start slowly believing that it isn't a dream, that when i wake up tomorrow he'll still be with me, he'll still kiss me and hold me, that each time i see him just gets better, i feel like i've known him for 10 years if not more, i feel so comfortable so myself i don't have to make excuses for how he is, i dont want to change him (except the distance) even though it's probably what's making us stronger i know it's soon, i know it's quick, the thing is, its unexplainable, we just click, we just happened, we just worked so well and i feel like i'm moving 1000 miles a minute with him but it feel so natural, almost everyone says that its too fast, some just smile and are happy for me, but there are some that see us together and see it, see how we are, see how we click, how we mesh, how we are so comfortable around each other, they see how i am around him, how there's no fighting, there's no bickering, there's no changing, there's no pissed off me, there's just ME....it's 100% laila, and he loves it and that makes me fall even more. i can't stop rambling because i feel like i need to shout it to the world, i want to shout it to the world, i want to tell everyone how amazing he is, how lucky i am, and i mean it this time. looking at past entries i see how i bullshitted my way through past relationships, trying to make them seem more than they were...it's funny, because i know if were reading someone else writing this seeing the way the previously talked about other boyfriends i'd probably think they were crazy too, think that they were just talking to talk because they didn't really know what it was like to love someone, but that's not the case with him. for once this is real, for once i am myself, for once i'm actually scared of losing someone, not scared that they'll cheat on me, but scared that i may wake up from this amazing dream to find out that its only a dream. it's too random how we met to be just a fling, everything happens for a reason, i know nicole had a lot to do with this, but i also know it was my belief in love that kept me going. saying bye to him is so hard, but knowing that i get to see him again makes it all the better.
life is going so well right now, i'm afraid maybe too well, but i will keep soaking this all in for as long as i can...and i hope it never ends ♥
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[03 Mar 2007|06:19pm] |
thank you Nicole
I know you had a lot to do with it :)
Love you and miss you
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[13 Feb 2007|11:50pm] |
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i have a crush :)
hehe aww so giddy, finally yay!!
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[06 Feb 2007|11:09pm] |
yup...
...still waiting for it to get easier.
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[27 Jan 2007|08:57pm] |
seein chris daughtry tomorrow, thought i should get his CD so I'd at least know more than one song....and look what I found. Every sign points to slowly getting over you.
Now that its all said and done
I cant believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I felt as if I was in way to deep
Guess I let you get the best of me
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought Id doubt you
Im better off without you
More than you, more than you know
Im slowly getting closure
I guess its really over
Im finally gettin better
Now Im picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought Id never get through
I got over you
You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I?d doubt you
Im better off without you
More than you, more than you know
Im slowly getting closure
I guess its really over
Im finally getting better
Now Im picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought Id never get through
I got over you
I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought Id doubt you
I?m better off without you
And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
Im finally getting better
Now Im picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you
And I got over you
And I got over you
The day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you
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[25 Jan 2007|11:12pm] |
i thought hating you would make the pain go away
turns out...it doesn't
and i hate myself even more for caring about you, i hate myself for believing that you would have the decency to call me, the decency to tell me, you say you love me, you don't even know what that word means and it kills me because as much as i hate you, part of me still wants to love you and hang on. my heart has never hurt so much before, i want to stop thinking about you because you aren't worth my thoughts, you aren't worth my tears. i am nothing to you so why should you be anything to me. i hate myself for loving you, i hate myself for falling for you, i hate myself for giving up so much in my life to be with you, i hate myself for giving you another chance, i hate myself for waiting for you. no one has ever hurt me as much as you have ian. you ripped my heart right out and don't seem to care. you have no heart, you don't know what love is, you really don't. because a person who truly loves would be in pain, just like i am right now. i want to cry, i'm so choked up, i feel the tears building as a write this. i wish you knew, i wish you knew how much you hurt me. i wish i never met you ian, i wish we never started, i wish i would've listened to every other person who told me i was better than you, who told me you were scum, but i was so blinded because i loved you, heart and soul. i thought you were my one, i thought you were my only, my soul mate, i pray to GOD that you get whats coming to you, i hope you feel twice the pain that i'm feeling, i hope your heart gets ripped out and torn to shreds, i hope you get used and fucked over.
please god let this stop
Would have given up my life for you
Guess its true what they say about love
Its blind
You lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize
You didnt say youre sorry
I dont understand
You dont care that you hurt me
And now Im half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didnt love me enough
My heart may never mend
And youll never get to love me, again
No, no, no, no, no, no
Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that youre not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it
But you didnt say youre sorry
I dont understand
You dont care that you hurt me
And now Im half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didnt love me enough
My heart may never mend
And youll never get to love me
Wish like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But its too late, its over now
You didnt say youre sorry
I dont understand
You dont care that you hurt me
And now Im half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didnt love me enough
My heart may never mend
And youll never get to love me
Again
Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me
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[25 Jan 2007|12:02am] |
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! because I have done better, will continue to do better, and will always be better than you're fucking white trash ass you piece of shit. you are a loser, an asshole, a douche bag, a cheater, a liar, a joke! you are so below me its not even funny i once felt bad saying it, even though the whole WORLD knew it. you are scum, and now I walk on you because you are nothing but shit on the ground to me.
you wanna see better fucker, here's better, you fucking prick.
there you go you fucking prick, more of a man than you could ever be! UGGH!!! YOU ARE A FUCKING DOUCHEBAG SON OF A BITCH WORLTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT WHO NEVER DESERVED MY HEART! I HATE YOU!!!!
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so i guess this is really it...good bye...for good this time
now i just have to convince myself im actually strong enough to go through with it. "/
your not the person that you used to be
the one i want who wanted me
and thats a shame but
theres only so many tears you can cry
before it drains the light right from your eyes
and i can't go on that way
so i'm letting go of everything we were
doesn't mean it doesn't hurt
we built it up to watch it fall
like we meant nothing at all
I GAVE AND GAVE THE BEST OF ME
BUT COULDN'T GIVE YOU WHAT YOU NEED
You walked away
You stole my life
Just to find what you're looking for
But no matter how I try
...we can't be together anymore...
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[18 Jan 2007|06:30pm] |
You took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window
Always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see
This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees
These foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You were always brilliant in morning
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee
You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
You'd teach me of honest things
Things that were daring, things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back
Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself
These foolish games are tearing me apart
You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You took off your coat and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that
....some things are just hard to let go of.
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come on life....just get a little better...please.
i hate loving people to the point of it hurting. but right now, thats all i can do. i NEED this to be a better year...i can't go another month like this...i really can't.
I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly
I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden
And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same
Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
It's all the same
In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same
Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
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[06 Jan 2007|01:31am] |
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okay, so I've decided that since it is a start to a new year, I'm going to start over...with myself, at least. I have decided to make some changes in my life with how I deal with people and situations. I know, that I am NOT GOOD at letting people go, and letting people otu of my life. It's never been anything easy for me. BUT, unfortunately, there are people that are going to be in my life, or are, or have been in my life, that just aren't for me. Sadly, they were in my life for a period of time, and there is a time to let them go.
There is a reason, a season, and FOR LIFE. There is always going to be a reason that people are in your life, whether it's a person that stops to talk to you on the street for 5 minutes, or someone you meet at a club, or a friend you had when you were 13. Then, there are the seasons. Those people that are in your life for a short period of time. A couple months, a couple years...they make an impact on your life, and you will always remember whether it was a good season, or a bad season. Then, there are those people that are for life. Those people that are for life, love you unconditionally. There is no condition to them loving you. They support you're decisions and help you when they think you are going in the wrong direction. They can actually see whether or not the decisions you are making in your life are loving acts for yourself or unloving acts for yourself. The "for lifes" will help you up when you fall, and help you stay supported when you are up.
I hope that I can keep my for lifes around...it'd be nice to have my seasons thrown in there too. But from now on, if I feel what I'm doing is right for me, then I'm doing it. I have to love myself, I have to be true to myself. I cannot be what anyone else wants anymore. I am Laila. And I'm finally doing things to respect, love, and be true to me. I hope to see you all with me in the future. <33
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[02 Jan 2007|06:26pm] |
I'm happy! 2007 is a new year, thank GOD!
Love my friends, and loving the way life is turning out right now! <33 That is all
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i am so livid
i was even more so last night, but my GOD how many times can you play tug of war with someones heart. i cant even write what im feeling to you because im so livid...this is the only way i can express what i'm feeling.
do you feel like a man when you push her around
do you feel better now as she falls to the ground
face down in the dirt
she says this doesnt hurt
she says...I'VE FINALLY HAD ENOUGH!
Standing in the front yard telling me
How I'm such a fool - Talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted
You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby
You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable
See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you ASS, i dont want you back
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you ASS, i dont want you back
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah....
Let's play this game called when you catch fire
I wouldn't piss to put you out
Stop burning bridges, drive up off them
So I can forget about YOU!
And suddenly I've become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters ’till the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find?
Was there something you left behind?
Don’t you remember anything I said when I said
Don’t fall away, and leave me to myself
Don’t fall away and leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleeding
So let me on down
Cause TIME HAS MADE ME STRONG
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your CHANCE HAS COME AND GONE
And you know
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah, Yeah
Since you've been gone
You're dedicated,
You took the time
Wasn't long 'till I called you mine
Yeah, Yeah
Since you've been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you ever hear me say
But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone
Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
I'VE GOT MORE WIT
A BETTER KISS
A HOTTER TOUCH
A BETTER FUCK
AND ANY GIRL YOU'LL EVER MEET SWEETIE YOU HAD ME!!!!!
so fuck you...because someday love will find me in the rough
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